I can say I changed a lot last year, ever since I REALLY got to know God in CF.
For most of my friends, I bet they can recall that last year, especially the first half of it, I ALWAYS talked about saving the environment, saving the orangutans, air pollutions, avoiding tsunami and so on. I did not really care about God and all that. I cared more about saving the environment, and had NO interest with God's work. When my mom asked me to come to CF, I though ah well, another boring activity. How wrong I was.
Through friends in CF I learned the power of prayer, how a good friend can really help you while a bad one can ruin you, experience God, see how people's lives are changed, saw friends change before my eyes and so many more. As time passed, I realised that, in the Bible, it was said that all the natural disasters are a sign that Jesus is coming back. So it's a bit useless to try to prevent it. So slowly I changed from an environment fanatic into someone that wants so serve God.
Before this I wanted to become some great people that saves the animals and environment and so on. To prove this, when I looked back in my diary dating when I was 11, I wrote there that I wanted to open a 500 thousand acre of reinforest reserve. WOW.
I realised that I'm gifted in many ways. Some people say that I can be a great leader one day, that I can go far. I am also good in my studies, active in co-curicular activities, represented the school quite some time, won a Commenwealth competition and so on. I am aware that with all these I can do a lot when I grow up, like become a doctor or a great environmentalogist, as I dreamed before. But a lot of incidents happened recently that can be linked together. It's like God said when I grow up, I will serve HIM, and not helping the animals.
Take this incident for example. During the last year end holidays, I suddenly got interested in eye surgery and medical things, maybe because I went with my mom to bring my grandmother to check her eyes in the hospital. A few days after that, I watched a CD that a man gave for free at a Christian bookstore in Sabah. It was about how people got to know God. While watching the movie, I was not moved in any way. Bur when I opened the trailer and watched, out of the blue, I cried, It was like God told me that I don't belong to the medical world, and that I should serve Him.
This is how I change, and am still changing, day by day, guided by Christ.
By
Feisan V. M.
