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Hey everyone. Doris here :) Feisan has been asking me to write something here for AGES, but, obviously, i didn't post anything here :P

i think feisan's done a wonderful job. creating a blog for CF, whoah. haha. :D

so, here's my testimony::

so, maybe some of you might be wondering, what does a 13-year old girl like me possibly have to say? Haha. yeah, if this was a year ago, i'd be asking myself the exact same question :)

God has certainly worked wonders in my life this year. On July 28th this year, my best friend of 9 years passed away. And, obviously, i'd blamed God. I questioned Him. I guess at that time i was absolutely devastated about losing my BFF. I thought God had abandoned me. I thought He'd stopped caring. So, yeah. When i look back on the way i acted then, i just couldn't believe that that was me. I was crushed that God had taken my best friend away from me, but i never would've thought i'd act like that. Haha. You could say i was being overly-dramatic :D

So, basically, yeah. I thought God had forgotten about me. And, yes, i was very selfish then. In my view, everything had to be about ME. And God taking my best friend away from was definitely just ruining my life. Or so i thought.

I went to school the next day, feeling utterly devastated. I wanted to just block out EVERYONE from my life. That didn't exactly go the way i planned it to. Haha. As soon as i arrived in school, i was surrounded by friends. Whether they knew my friend who passed away or not, ALL of my friends were there for me. They didn't leave me alone. They knew of my loss, and knew how upset i was. My closest friends in class, Xuan Ying and Shahmina were the ones who had been able to make me laugh. Soon after that, all of my friends were around me, cracking up jokes and all. Haha. And the best part was, even Puan Thilaga, ( :D ) made me laugh :)

After school, I had CF la, as usual. On that day, i seriously felt loved. And while i was in the CF room, I was so sure that God had not abandoned me. I went home, feeling so much more better, and i prayed. I asked God for forgiveness. I knew i shouldn't have questioned Him. I knew I was wrong.

The week after that, my Papa came into my room and told me that he booked ticket for me to go to Australia for my best friend's funeral. I was shocked. Just the week before I'd asked Papa if i could go and he said there was no way he'd be able to get me a flight this late. And there he was, telling me I'd be able to say my last goodbye to my best friend.

I've definitely changed a lot since then. I've stopped being so selfish. I've learnt to appreciate my friends while i still have them. But most of all, I've learnt that no matter how much of struggle and pain you go through in life, God will always be there to help you through it. He'll be there with you, no matter what. And He'll always love us all. :)

Friends are God's way of taking care of us here on earth. (: <3

That's my testimony :) thanks for reading it although it was sorta long :D

Love,
Doris Ashwena Thomas :)